9/19/19



The thing about heartbreak is it's worse at night. And when you're heartbroken with a nursing baby getting no sleep, it's exhausting. I went through my day doing my normal routine. Went to the gym with my daughters and now I'm just sitting here writing, hoping sleep will make it's way to my heart. My heart needs rest. My eyes need rest. I just know, I'm going to get through this. I've been through it before. Just thought I've left that life behind me. I guess nothing is really set in stone. The past can always return, the future can always taunt. All we can do is learn to get better at braving the storms.

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